Nostalgia

Always I have nostalgia to the past. Sometimes I see like a vision about some certain events or places like my memories in different times and different places. Sometimes I feel my soul lived in this time or in this place before. Actually I have two images I can see it with clear. The first vision I see small children run in the passing in old school and they wear jacket with small short and these clothes was common in Egypt in the beginning of previous century. I see myself sit in the classroom and I see these students. This school has old design with high doors and its ceiling built from woods and iron with cement. Another vision I can see it in the war exactly before 1973 where I have my submachine gun and I see many soldiers around me. I see the desert around me and our military vehicle run among the desert. I can touch the fears in their faces and within my heart but in this vision I can see a part of my features and I can describe this face. Sometimes I feel our souls live within these bodies to fly again and to start new life with other body. Maybe it's just illusions or imaginations which push me to believe that. Whenever I looked to place in the past i feel i have memories and this place or building lives within me. But it is not with any old building. It happens in certain circumstances which related to my soul and this place. I know I have something special for me like telepathic which give me something like a vision. In some old buildings I can touch the memories and the souls which lived in these buildings. Sometimes I can see this place come back to specific time where I can see everything around me and I can see the people who lived in this place. Sometimes I can feel with the sadness and pains due to there is soul lived in this place but something wrong happened with him or her. I feel I have many events which happened for me. Indeed I can't describe my feelings about that but you can consider my soul became a part from the place. I feel I have some of memories in this place and I can see everything like a vision. So I like to visit these old buildings and if I have chance to enter it I do that to walk alone within it to touch it's wall to touch their memories and release my soul to fly in the place. Sometimes I feel with details for this place or the time I remember my clothes and the streets .Often it happens with me and I don't know how but I can describe everything in this place and if you have old photos for this place you will find I'm right. For example in this image I feel with nostalgia to certain window which I like it because this window for my bedroom in the past. I can imagine my bedroom with its details. I don't know how or why.

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